goodnight ladies and gentlemen

hmmm I've been thinking.

you know I really can't be fucked writing this anymore.

My thoughts should be my own.

so I'll go get my things and I'll see you all some other time.

I'll keep writing, just not here.

bye.

hehe I'll erase the proof of all mistakes!

What have I given you?

but then again what can I offer?

This city will soon sleep in flames.

this hell's full of clown's with tear-away faces.

Tricksters and jokers who will never remove their masks.

I may not have a tear-away face but I wish I had a tear-away tongue.

So I would stop spouting nonsense.

Stop talking about such idiotic and stupid things. Such inappropriate things...

But sometimes. Maybe it would be better that I did have mask, having something to hide behind would be nice for when I spout nonsense. But that is the price of being real.

But back to that question of being real.

hehe I remember when I was young and how I spent what seemed like hours lying on my bed, staring at the roof.

Wondering what was real and what wasn't...

bad timing

I may be a bit delirious.

I just spent 10 minutes are arguing with mum about why we don't have a Safeway shopping trolley in the freezer. As well as how 'we used to have one'.

haha sounds stupid; but at the time it made sense :)

and FUCKING RAGEEEEE

I was trying to sleep and every time I heard my computer play the tune indicating somebody had signed on msn, I forced my eyes open and with blurry vision checked the computer screen. To see if it was you or not. I did that for a good amount of time until I decided.

"Ahh doesn't look like she's coming, I'm sure she'd nudge me or ring if she came online" and with that I went to sleep.

Unfortunately that was around about the same time you did decide to sign on.

ahh fuck me T_T

I missed you. Literally.

:(

blaghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

MAN DOWN, I NEED A MEDIC D:

ahhh i feel so sickkkkkk. IT'S TERRIBLE D:

literally half a litre of antibiotics amongst other things.

oh wells these tablets are awesum, much better pain relief than panadol.

ITS....GOD LIKEEE :D lmaoooo

and im not high or addicted :)

-insert sad face here-

wahhhhhhhhhhhhh dont get to see talk 2 my baby til friday :'(

-cries-

lmao.

D: damn and I thought I'd improved

damnnn another failure :(

What the fuck happened, I used to be good at this kind of stuff...I think. Or maybe I just knew people who were easily satisfied.

oh wellssss I'll keep tryingg, I'll get it right one day.

I hope you're patient enough for me :(