~The things that no one else can see.

♫ I gotta secret, it's on the tip of my tongue, at the back of my lungs and I'm gonna keep it!♫

You never really know someone do you?

Perhaps I shouldn't be surprised, yet I've had a permanent expression of shock since morning.

I've known you since prep. Yet I never thought you were quite like that.

Gut Feeling

Why do I feel like this again? I thought I got rid of this ages ago.

once again, i need 'something'. But not even I know what I need...

Guilty as charged ladies and gentlemen

ahhh funny ol' world isn't it?

ah my symphony of sympathy, hopefully it'l cool your discontent

~For more than one reader.

Vow

I'll get stronger for you :]

should the weight become too much, I'll carry you. "♫My legs begin to break, I've walked this path for far too long♫" won't be something you'll hear from me, because I'll be strong enough for you.

The Lessons of Literature

I felt like Othello.

I shouldn't listen, the world is full of trickery.

The things that have plagued my mind: Foolish delusions and misinterpretations, words so smooth that they roll off the tongue like oiled glass. You're just waiting for the screech of friction.

I should trust what I know, believe in my own judgement. Not seek the advice of others, nor their opinions, all this for my own uncertainties.

But now my mind is free, for I trust in you :)

Pity, this is such a short blog and not very articulately written. But the title is so epic, too epic for a blog like this.

For Stevie Wonder's eyes only

hehe i was up long after I signed off.

Finally we're in sync :)

ahh dragged down too.

~Why bother with me? As usual I'm unwanted and not needed. just a extra, not a part of the real thing.

Just a fucking spare on stand by. Should the preffered option be unavailable.

Tch, why bother. If I aint needed, I'l just go.

Even if there's nowhere for me.

It's better not to be a part of it than be second best, why let people know I try.

Because then it's just pathetic...

ahh nothing gets it off your chest better than bring me the horizon ;D

Idiot. A stupid fucking idiot. U.S.E.L.E.S.S

Fucking hell I'm such a hypocrite, every single fucking time i do something stupid. I REMIND MYSELF just to shut the fuck up in future. Don't talk because somethings are not meant to be said. Your mind is you own and no one else should hear it, you shouldn't share it. Because it'll be the death of you.

I fucking say it to myself every fucking time. I even write it where I'll see it, on my phone, in code on my computer, in my mind I've even linked particular people with me shutting the FUCK up.

how pathetic of me.

Don't talk, sow the mouth shut, rip out my tongue, break my mind, rip the vocal cords out of my throat and shred the inside of my neck. Fucking inscribe it with a chisel on the inside of my skull, so when my mind wanders it will see it in big fucking letters.

Scars are reminders not to be so god damn fucking dumb.

♫Insane? Am I the only motherfucker with a brain. I hear voices but all they do is complain! How many times have you wanted to kill? everything and everyone! You say you'll do it but never will!♫ BMTH

I am he who wandered too deep in the lost woods.

Don't touch a wounded animal, don't come too close when it's hungry.

hehe ;)

- Skull Kid, near Kokiri Forrest.

:@

Hate,murder,wrath,pain,scream,hurt,torture, excruciating agony,blood,gore,violence, break,smash,splinter,rip,shred,flesh,bone andDeath.

then relief follows through so beautifully it makes you shudder and your spine tingle.

sorry i just hate my media teacher :)

:P

Hehe, A calm and collected face...but a heart beating so hard it hurts. ;)

Pace

Have I been the one to spin your whirlpool too fast?

You seem so scared to lose control. Or are you scared of what might happen if you let go?

You need to relax :)

Instead of fighting against the current, go with it. Don't let it consume you and drag you away from everything and everyone, sucking you into the gaping hole in the centre. Stay close to the edge of the waters if you must, leaving one hand on the solid ground. So you know you can get out with haste if you feel the need.

You don't have to let go of control. Everyone needs an amount of control. But lessen your grip on it, don't stress that you can't stop the waves but find peace in knowing you can control their impact on you.

I'll be in the water with you, to guide you, so you don't have to do it alone. But I know this isn't easy, god it took me soooo long to get it. But if you do panic and lose control, it's okay. Everyone looses their control every now and then.

Should you get sucked in, I'll swim after you :)

btw.

ey is any1 gud at installn new templates?

Know this.

I know you forgave me, but still I feel bad about it. :(

It'll go away soon. I know that.

But I feel like......I should be punished. That something bad should happen to me and I should endure whatever is delivered.

Or possibly deliver it myself. I know I have in the past.

Either way, I miss you and I love you. :]

note:

I use a lot of metaphors ;D

safe enough to relax?

A few interesting things have been happening.

I've had quite a few blows to the heart, but I'm surprised I'm still standing. Perhaps I've gained some strength.

A long forgotten apology has been delivered. Although what motivated it is still questionable.

An old friendship, rekindled.

A catchup with some friends, that maybe I can hold on to.

I've experienced a few moments that only happen to the lucky few.

Another cross roads, I can go left, right, back track or keep going forward (but I see a pit at the end of the latter.)

~We'll see how we go :]