It's not paranoia if it's valid.

ahh could have sworn it was resolved.

But it keeps coming backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

and it comes back in one big pulsating sickness.

physical manifestations of what should not be physical.

But at least i manifests as sickness, because if it were a separate entity, what a monster it would be do behold.

But.

At least it would be separate from me, and maybe I could kill it, but then again it could kill me too.


~not quite finished, but I can't write about something that hasn't completely unfolded yet.

A whisper but no Clamor.

Ahh things that never bothered me, now do so.

They've found a way through the cracks and now my mind is plagued.

I don't quite know where to begin.

I don't trust those who you acquaint yourself with.

Not because I know them, but because of the things I know about them and their actions. I'm sorry but actions speak louder than words and these actions speak loud.

Now a new problem, something I've never had to deal with. It's strange, I don't know what to think really.

Little thoughts keep creeping in. Doesn't help that I have other issues on my mind.

I hope I can gain some peace of mind soon, it would make things so much easier to find some guarantees and sureties.

♪Don't try to wake me up, even if the sun really does come out tommorow.♪ ---> anberlin :)

But please Squall, don't turn into a recluse.

andd i was just bout to finish this blog, but now all has been cleared. i really should finish my blogs before the issue is resolved...seriously this page has been up for like 1.5 hours, i wrote it in like 5 mins, but forgot to press publish LOL

Now holster it.

This one got scared and ran.

Cock the gun and aim for the head.

Heart attacks, can be sensed from a distance.

Maybe I can scare this one off.

rofl sarah

LOL morbidddddd

i had to google it to remember what it meant again. been so long since i heard that word.

So as i look at the answer...

"ehhhh yeahh sounds bout rite LOL"

Slap across the cheek.

FUCK YOU JAMES

you stupid fucking idiot. you fucking RETARD.

Fucking, why do you bother if you're going to give up like that

WHY THE FUCK DO YOU BOTHER THEN?

DONT let that BULLSHIT get to you

Don't let this fluctuation in confidence be the death of you.

Don't listen.

Don't care.

Don't believe it.

Worked too hard to get where I am, and I will be damned if I give up.

Over confidence, underconfidence. It's all bullshit.

There is who you are and that is that.

If others influence who you are then, I hope to God this stability I draw is proven true.

No, I don't hope. Because even if it isn't I will find something that is damn true.

Irritant

god, im fucking blind.

ARGH